dying inside

The moment when you feel that you just wanna die and not live no more,

The moment when you feel you're a piece of dumb shit,

The adrenaline rush you feel,

The heart is pacing so fast, you find difficulties to even breathe,

The guilt inside you, that's slowly eating your heart.

YEAP, that's how i'm feeling right now. I FEEL LIKE DYING LIKE RIGHT NOW, THIS INSTANCE.

HOW, HOW IN THE WORLD, HOW CAN THEY, LIKE CHARGE A FREAKING TINY PIECE OF A4 PAPER, WITH ONLY BLACK INK, BLACK INK, FOR 50 CENT?! That's so insane. PLUS, my uncle's GIRLFRIEND, works there. After negotiation, she charge us RM450. THAT is still so dam expensive. RM400 i can buy 4 of my college textbooks with that price. I feel like murdering myself right now.

I was to be blamed actually. It was my fault for not asking the price. but I really didn't know. I printed there once and it wasn't even so expensive. This will be my last visit. I will never EVER step into that shop ever again. I really learned my lesson. It hit me hard.

SO PEOPLE, please ask before purchasing. DONT BE AS STUPID AS ME.

have a lovely day miccos! well i pretty much killed my day. ADIOS!

unpredictable

You know I always felt that there was something about him that I will never ever figure out. No matter how hard I try, there will always be something that is left unsaid or unheard. Its not that i couldn't forget about the past or whatever, its that somehow i always feel that he's hiding something & not being that honest with me. OR maybe i was the problem. I shouldn't have been so... over reacting and jealous maybe? but this is me. If you weren't important to me, i wont bother being so protective or wanting to know more about you.

Ya sure everything's settled down, and time has made us realized for better or worse. But a part of me, trying so hard to trust you, its not a simple task. You once broke my trust, so to gain back my trust its not as easy as you think it is. I may smile at you, telling you that I'm fine with everything, but to tell you the truth, you wont be able to see the sadness and pain i kept inside.

I pray for the best between us.

Adios my micos (: have a beautiful day ahead!

DON'T RUIN IT

Hello beautifulS!

So there's one thing i'm worrying about. I really, REALLY am scared that my friend will forget what day is tomorrow. I really hope that "the friend" hasn't forgotten about it. If "the friend" really did forgot about it, i will be really, really, REALLY disappointed. NOT JOKING. It's the first time been asked! I really don't want anything to ruin the day. I can't imagine how mad and sad i will feel. Hopefully it works out tomorrow.

pretty please? ):

Addios my micos (: & a happy new year!

Like, FINALLY!

Hellooo peeps! So basically everyone's stressing about the law assignment thing which we HAVE TO hand in this MONDAY.

Stress stress stress! yes? HAHAHAHHA. Indeed it is very VERY stress to do the law

assignment. You know you have to think hard and whether the articles you found is related to the law you've learned in your syllabus and all? and you have to state what the law it is related to and give your freaking opinion to it.

I mean like... COME ONNN!! WHYYYY must it be so hard.

Thankfully, everyone is almost finish with their law assignments.

So besides that after all the waiting and waiting and WAITING.....

AND FINALLY, today is the day where a dear friend of mine is BACK!

After all the waiting, FINALLY!! Hope my dear friend reaches malaysia safe and sound!

Guess i have to continue finishing the article.

JUST ONE MORE!

adios lovely people!

Memories

WELLOW! I wonder how long I've never blogged? HAHA oh wells, at least I'm blogging now!

Well, final exams is just around the corner and I haven't even finish studying a single subject. How cool is THAT!?

I can't seem to find the motivation to study. Every time I open a book, my mind seem to went blank. OH my sky.

I so happened to found the school magazine and I flipped through the pages and all the memories starts rushing in. AHHHH how I wish I can turn back the time (:

I really missed my friends. WE HAD SO MUCH FUN!

Not to say that I hate my life in college now, but I much prefer the time I had when I'm in high school.

We gotta hang out again guys (: really miss all of you. Take care!

loves.

SLEEP LATE

Making a card for dear mummy (:

Tomorrow's mother's day! you people gonna get anything for your mumm?

Well, I hope you guys appreciate your mum! (of course your dad as well LAH!)

AWW just now read a comic book and i CRY WEIH. sooo touching.

Won't it be great if my bf will treat me that great as well? HAHA!

Better continue making the card! SO TIRED.

Adios!

where you gooooooooo!

Beginning

Hello people! How are you guys :)
Anyways, things has been different for me. The fairy tale life has ended and I have decided to walk out of this nightmare and start a new and fresh life.
Started college LONG ago and I'm starting to blend in with my classmates.
I miss my secondary classmates HELL a lot and I can't wait to see them sooooooon!
My primary Best friend is gonna start college this coming july! OH YEAH BABEH.

*******

You know, everyone should appreciate what they have now before it's too late. I believed in you and you just walked away from my life, just like that.
The pain is permanent, but I won't let this stop me from moving on , aye (:
Thanks so much for leaving a FOOTSTEP on my heart.
I cry, I fall, I struggle to get back up.
I smile, I laugh, I feel the energy rushing in me.
You were the one, the only one,
but things are not the same now.
time to say goodbye (:

701? (: