dying inside

The moment when you feel that you just wanna die and not live no more,

The moment when you feel you're a piece of dumb shit,

The adrenaline rush you feel,

The heart is pacing so fast, you find difficulties to even breathe,

The guilt inside you, that's slowly eating your heart.

YEAP, that's how i'm feeling right now. I FEEL LIKE DYING LIKE RIGHT NOW, THIS INSTANCE.

HOW, HOW IN THE WORLD, HOW CAN THEY, LIKE CHARGE A FREAKING TINY PIECE OF A4 PAPER, WITH ONLY BLACK INK, BLACK INK, FOR 50 CENT?! That's so insane. PLUS, my uncle's GIRLFRIEND, works there. After negotiation, she charge us RM450. THAT is still so dam expensive. RM400 i can buy 4 of my college textbooks with that price. I feel like murdering myself right now.

I was to be blamed actually. It was my fault for not asking the price. but I really didn't know. I printed there once and it wasn't even so expensive. This will be my last visit. I will never EVER step into that shop ever again. I really learned my lesson. It hit me hard.

SO PEOPLE, please ask before purchasing. DONT BE AS STUPID AS ME.

have a lovely day miccos! well i pretty much killed my day. ADIOS!

unpredictable

You know I always felt that there was something about him that I will never ever figure out. No matter how hard I try, there will always be something that is left unsaid or unheard. Its not that i couldn't forget about the past or whatever, its that somehow i always feel that he's hiding something & not being that honest with me. OR maybe i was the problem. I shouldn't have been so... over reacting and jealous maybe? but this is me. If you weren't important to me, i wont bother being so protective or wanting to know more about you.

Ya sure everything's settled down, and time has made us realized for better or worse. But a part of me, trying so hard to trust you, its not a simple task. You once broke my trust, so to gain back my trust its not as easy as you think it is. I may smile at you, telling you that I'm fine with everything, but to tell you the truth, you wont be able to see the sadness and pain i kept inside.

I pray for the best between us.

Adios my micos (: have a beautiful day ahead!