Tuesday, March 25, 2014

what got me thinking..

I just wish I can shut myself up and tell myself that there's nothing to be afraid or insecure of. If its meant to be, then it is. If its not, then TOO BAD. I'm always shy around people and have zero confidence in myself, WHAT A FAILURREEEEE :( Its so hard to strike up a topic with international students. PFFT, what am I saying, I can't even talk to Malaysians in my Uni. I'm such a coward. I just don't know what to say to them. Recently, especially this semester, I have met quite a number of Koreans. And just yesterday, I made a Korean male friend. HOW'S THAT FOR A CHANGE? har had har... its nothing to be proud of anyway... I was actually forced to make friends with him since we need another member in our group (oops!). 

Is it me, or making new friends with the opposite gender are so much harder? I don't even know what to say to him. I'm just... sitting... and.. smiling... *sigh*. I'm sorry dude, I don't mean it! I wanted to talk to you but I just don't know what to say... 

I hate myself... *sobs* Its time for a change. 

Monday, February 10, 2014

Its a lonely lonely place...

Hello lovelies,
So today I decided to blog since I have nothing better to do until my brother comes back from his high school. The house is getting really quiet now after my parents and baby cousin left. Time sure does fly when youre really enjoying it. Now that I think about it, I cant believe they had stayed here for already 9 days, which only felt like 3 days!

You know, when people say you take things for granted, they are actually damn right. While my parents were still here, I get annoyed pretty easily since they kept asking me to do things which they can do it by themselves, but now that they're gone, I actually miss them appointing me to do chores. How funny. BUT, I highly doubt that I'll manage to last if they're here. Im pretty sure I'll blow up in less than 2 weeks.

Yes, I may say this now, that I miss being appointed by them etc, but if they really do come back, Im sure I'll get annoyed all over again. Why is this so? I guess people just wont realise what they got until they lose it. First, you'll be grateful... then slowly, you'll get annoyed, and angry... and as time passes, you wish to get away from that person A.S.A.P. This is LIFE I guess. Humans, go figure. However, we should be grateful what we have every single day. Before sleeping, lie on the bed and reflect about the past. What has life given you that's worth remembering or fighting for? People come and go, and by the time you realised something, someone in this very earth has lost someone dear to them.

Addios lovelies!