what got me thinking..

I just wish I can shut myself up and tell myself that there's nothing to be afraid or insecure of. If its meant to be, then it is. If its not, then TOO BAD. I'm always shy around people and have zero confidence in myself, WHAT A FAILURREEEEE :( Its so hard to strike up a topic with international students. PFFT, what am I saying, I can't even talk to Malaysians in my Uni. I'm such a coward. I just don't know what to say to them. Recently, especially this semester, I have met quite a number of Koreans. And just yesterday, I made a Korean male friend. HOW'S THAT FOR A CHANGE? har had har... its nothing to be proud of anyway... I was actually forced to make friends with him since we need another member in our group (oops!). 

Is it me, or making new friends with the opposite gender are so much harder? I don't even know what to say to him. I'm just... sitting... and.. smiling... *sigh*. I'm sorry dude, I don't mean it! I wanted to talk to you but I just don't know what to say... 

I hate myself... *sobs* Its time for a change. 

Its a lonely lonely place...

Hello lovelies,
So today I decided to blog since I have nothing better to do until my brother comes back from his high school. The house is getting really quiet now after my parents and baby cousin left. Time sure does fly when youre really enjoying it. Now that I think about it, I cant believe they had stayed here for already 9 days, which only felt like 3 days!

You know, when people say you take things for granted, they are actually damn right. While my parents were still here, I get annoyed pretty easily since they kept asking me to do things which they can do it by themselves, but now that they're gone, I actually miss them appointing me to do chores. How funny. BUT, I highly doubt that I'll manage to last if they're here. Im pretty sure I'll blow up in less than 2 weeks.

Yes, I may say this now, that I miss being appointed by them etc, but if they really do come back, Im sure I'll get annoyed all over again. Why is this so? I guess people just wont realise what they got until they lose it. First, you'll be grateful... then slowly, you'll get annoyed, and angry... and as time passes, you wish to get away from that person A.S.A.P. This is LIFE I guess. Humans, go figure. However, we should be grateful what we have every single day. Before sleeping, lie on the bed and reflect about the past. What has life given you that's worth remembering or fighting for? People come and go, and by the time you realised something, someone in this very earth has lost someone dear to them.

Addios lovelies!

WHAT I can't possibly stand

Seriously dude?

What I can't possibly stand is when a dude ask me if I'm on my period when I'm angry at him. LIKE, HELLO! you made me mad 'cos you obviously did something wrong, and you ask whether I'm on my period.

you have got to be kidding me.

Really, you did something wrong and you say I'm on my period. WHAT NONSENSE IS THIS?! Really guys, think before blurting out stupid nonsense to a girl. Just because she's angry at something you did, doesnt mean she's on her period ok? 

Addios!

Hello, How Are You?

HARROOOOW!


How's everyone been doing? Started my second year in Uni and all the tutors are so BORING! Had a scrumptious meal today at Circular Quay. Posted the yummy lunch in Instagram and all my friends left a comment saying its FATTENING. BOOOOO! i know its fattening okay! Don't have to rub it into my face! SOBBBS! mean friends! HAHAHAHAHHA one day I will take my sweet revenge on them MUWAHAHA!

Up till now, my relationship with my boyfriend is doing good. Either we dont care each other THAT much, ORRRRR, the other way round. We care for each other THAT much that we respect one and another. I trust my babyyyyy <333333 heehehheheh="" nbsp="" p="">
Anyhow, Hope everyone is doing great! TOODLES.

Goodbyes

Harro there my dear readers, my boyfriend is leaving to Australia tomorrow and I'm feeling down in the dumps. I hate goodbyes... what am I saying, WHO LOVES SAYING GOODBYES?! Maybe saying it to the person you hate feels awesome, but its never easy to say goodbye. I miss him, I really do. I know I'll still be able to see him soon, (not as if he's leaving for good and I'll never get the chance to see him ever again), but I feel that there's something missing in my life.

Couples out there will know exactly how I'm feeling, and those single ladies/gents out there, if you don't understand me, go and get yourself a partner!! HAHAHA i'm just kidding. Someone out there is waiting to meet you, so take it easy and find the RIGHT person that will spend his/her life with you.

Anyways, have a safe trip my dear boy and study smart! Love you with all my heart :) take care and SEE YOU SOON!!

Happy Mother's Day!

Hello again everyone!

Today's Mother's Day! Did you guys get anything for your mom? HAHA my instagram and facebook are flooded with pictures of my friends taking pictures with their mother's and surprising them with gifts and a nice dinner. Ahhh, I'm so happy for them. I really wish that I could spend Mother's day with my family as well, but sadly I can't. Anyways, it's the thought that counts, right? :) Happy Mother's Day!


So today I watched 2 films, which are Hotel Transylvania and The Lorax.

He reminds me of garfield! 

I loveeeeeeee her hair!

"UNLESS someone like you cares a whole awful lot, nothing is going to get better. It's not."

Hotel Transylvania

 Daddy's little girl :) 

This is too cute. can't say no to this little bat! haha

One more thing before I end this post. Guys, I know sometimes you're just curious of what other people's marks are, but don't get too overboard. For me, I won't mind telling people my grades even if I didn't do toooo good (ok sometimes if its too low I get upset but I'll still tell), don't force people to tell you, okay? They'll tell you eventually (or not), I don't know. Anyways what I'm trying to say is sometimes they just don't feel like telling you. It's not that they hate you or anything, they just dont want to, that's all. So don't force them, alright? 

I'll end here! adios! 

Dear John...

Great movie. 

Watched this movie today and it is beyond awesome. Am so in love with this movie but I don't get why would Savannah even get married to Tim. Doesn't make much sense to me, but overall it is a very very good movie. Do watch it! 

Mother's day is tomorrow! Did you guys get anything for your mom? Well, I did! Every year, my family celebrates Mother's day, Father's day, and birthdays together. My brother and I would make cards and buy presents for our parents E-V-E-R-Y Y-E-A-R. Sadly, not this year. BUT! nothing's going to stop us from keeping this 'tradition'. I guess my letter is somewhere in Malaysia's pos office waiting to be delivered to my house. I don't think my mom will receive the letter tomorrow ( I sent it last tuesday ), but hopefully she'll receive it this Monday. HA! I can't wait for my mom to receive it 'cos she gave me a call today, asking me " Do you know what day is tomorrow?? You should call me tomorrow okay? " hahaha and I was acting dumb, saying that tomorrow is Sunday, and she got so mad saying that my brother and I was heartless hahahhahaha. I just love my mom.

Dont just bring your parents out for a nice dinner only on mother's or father's day. You should occasionally bring your parents out for once in a while, spend some time with them, let them know that they mean a lot to you, and how much you appreciate them for raising you up as who you are today. You owe them more than anything you can ever give, and there is no way you can repay their love and time on you. Time doesn't stop for anyone. One day your parent's will leave you for a beautiful place, whether you like it or not.

Make every second count.

adios, beautiful you :) 

Something new

HELLOOOOOO THERE :)

SOOOOOOO today I was so pissed at one of my group member. OMGEE like "SHHHEEEE" first said that we should meet each other at 11am. & we agreed. Four of us agreed. And what happened? Well, she texted all of us, asking whether can we change the time to 12pm. 

OMG WHAT?! Like, hello we all agreed to meet up at 11am and now you just text us at like 10:40am and telling us to meet up at 12pm? ARE YOU KIDDING ME?? I think I need to get a new watch for her. How can someone be THAT inconsiderate? 

OKAY OKAY, fine fine fine, 12pm? fineeeee. Asked her to change the time to 12:30pm-1pm 'cos Liling and I had some other things to do, but no, nope, na-ah, she has to have a say to it. She thinks 30 minutes is not enough and insist us to meet up at 12pm. In the end we showed up late *evil laugh*. OI not on purpose okay? We have other things to do okay AND we already told her we're gonna be late. So in the end we walked back to Uni, and it was around 12.20pm. My friend, the other group mate called me and ask where was I. She told me she was waiting for the "friend" for 30 minutes, in front of the library all alone, with laptop and books in her bag, and she STILL hasn't show up. OMG what is her problem?  So basically the story goes like this, she came at 12:40pm, meet up for around 10 minutes and off she go, left 3 of us in the library. WHAT, WHAT IS HER PROBLEM? CAN ANYONE EXPLAIN TO ME?? 

First she told me 30 minutes is not enough, THEN she insist us to meet up at 12pm, ended up she showed up late, and only meet up for 10 minutes. LIKE hello, we have other things to do, not only you. How can you be so inconsiderate? UGHH! I'm sorry im just too angry.

Enough of her, lets say something else! So, today we bought our Macquarie Uni Hoodies! (or so you call it). AM SOOOOO HAPPY! We got a coupon that we can buy two hoodies for the price of AUD80. Yeah, I think its super expensive but they had a discount! It used to cost like AUD59 and after discount it's only AUD40! :)) HAPPY! 

TA DAHHH!

It's a little too big for me, isn't it :P 

my lunch! looks delicious, doesnt it? ahaha

I shall end this post with my awesome drawings during statistic tutorial! hahaha adios lovelies!

Reach the unreachable

Fear not fellow Malaysians, it is not the end, but only the beginning. Don't ever lose hope to your beautiful country. We may lost the battle, but we won because we are all united as one.

I love my country,

Malaysia :) 

Rise Of The Guardians

Hello again!

I have finally watched The Rise of the Guardians and it is BEYOOOOND AWESOME! I personally LOVE LOVE LOOOOOOOVE animation films. Like seriously, I love it SO SO much, that every single time I ask my friend out for a movie, the movie will most probably 90% be an animation movie.

I'M SORRY OKAYY! (but I don't feel sorry at all LOL!) I just love animation films. Like omg how can it be soooooooooo @#!@! NICE?! and Jack Frost. OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS. so handsome. That silver ( or white ) hair, that baby blue eyes, that hoodie, and that staff. OHHHH THAT AWESOME STAFF.

The Guardians

The Sandman

The Easter Bunny

The Tooth Fairy

Santa Claus ( awesome tattoos! )

Pitch ( the bad guy )

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST... *drum rolls*

The handsome Jack Frost. 

You see the staff? Is he a cutie pie or is HE A CUTIE PIE?! ahahhahahaa! It really is a good film. worth to watch! LOVE IT! YOU GUYS BETTER WATCH THAT MOVIE. What? You've already watch this awesome movie? well, good for you. GO AND WATCH AGAIN you poopoohead. IM SORRYYYYY you're not a poopoohead you're not you're not. 

addioooos lovelies! 

coldcoldcoldcoldcold BRRRRRR

HELLOOOOOO!!! I'm back.

Soooooo, I just had my finance class test today and I screwed my elements part :( NOOOOO!! And did I mention how bloody cold today was? NO? NOOO?? Ok, now you know, you stupid. IM JUST KIDDINGGGGG. Today, I froze to death. The weather was sooooo cold, especially when the wind blows, OMG you have no idea how cold it was. Now my feet is numb due to the coldness here .___.

Anyways, *brr brrrrr brrrr*. LOL! im sorry, my lips are numb too. So I shall stop here asdasdasdsdasd..

Sorry, the blogger's fingers was numb so the blog ends here. 

Adios lovelies.

HOHOHO

 hehehehehehheee.... can't get enough of him :P

Back to studying

Dear readers, (if i do have any hohoho) I'm back in sydney! It is time to hit the books again. Having my mid terms next week and the week after :( i know i know, many of you guys have already finished your mid terms, so SHADDAP! dont make me jealous of you guys >:( ANYWAYS, happy studying to you guys and to myself! hohoho! adios my amiccos <3

WHY, HELLO?

So as you all may know (or may not), I'm currently studying in Sydney, Australia. yes yes yes, I know it sounds so cool to study overseas, but i'm telling you, it's not as GREAT as you all may think it is.... *dum dum dum...* okay, or maybe i'm just still not used to be away from my dear parents and friends ( not to mention the food in my beautiful country. OH THE FOOOD!!!) Soooooooo, I am so angry right now 'cos I DON'T HAVE A FREAKING LAPTOP TO USE. yes... the tragedy.. no, i'm serious. Being a university student and not having a laptop to use is plain torture. Like, how am i suppose to do my assessments and online quizzes without a laptop?! I'm not exaggerating or anything okay. Some people may say, you can use the computers in your university. Yeah I would if only the university is just walking distance from my flat then I won't mind walking. However, to get to my university I have to take a bus. AND, the bus fare is not cheap at all. I feel so sad right now... *sobs* Adios amigos.

A little prayer

Yesterday, I was devastated by an unexpected news of my uncle being sent to the ICU. To think that good people will have a longer life, what a joke. 

My uncle is a sweetheart. He's so nice, EVERYONE likes him. He loved every single one of us. He will never give up on us. You can say that he's and adult with a kid's heart.

HE HAS TO WAKE UP BY TOMORROW. If he doesn't, his life may be in a huge danger. 

I sincerely hope that he'll go thru this critical stage. Miracles do happen, right? So why not give him another chance to live? 

Please don't let miracles to die. I beg you. 

dying inside

The moment when you feel that you just wanna die and not live no more,

The moment when you feel you're a piece of dumb shit,

The adrenaline rush you feel,

The heart is pacing so fast, you find difficulties to even breathe,

The guilt inside you, that's slowly eating your heart.

YEAP, that's how i'm feeling right now. I FEEL LIKE DYING LIKE RIGHT NOW, THIS INSTANCE.

HOW, HOW IN THE WORLD, HOW CAN THEY, LIKE CHARGE A FREAKING TINY PIECE OF A4 PAPER, WITH ONLY BLACK INK, BLACK INK, FOR 50 CENT?! That's so insane. PLUS, my uncle's GIRLFRIEND, works there. After negotiation, she charge us RM450. THAT is still so dam expensive. RM400 i can buy 4 of my college textbooks with that price. I feel like murdering myself right now.

I was to be blamed actually. It was my fault for not asking the price. but I really didn't know. I printed there once and it wasn't even so expensive. This will be my last visit. I will never EVER step into that shop ever again. I really learned my lesson. It hit me hard.

SO PEOPLE, please ask before purchasing. DONT BE AS STUPID AS ME.

have a lovely day miccos! well i pretty much killed my day. ADIOS!

unpredictable

You know I always felt that there was something about him that I will never ever figure out. No matter how hard I try, there will always be something that is left unsaid or unheard. Its not that i couldn't forget about the past or whatever, its that somehow i always feel that he's hiding something & not being that honest with me. OR maybe i was the problem. I shouldn't have been so... over reacting and jealous maybe? but this is me. If you weren't important to me, i wont bother being so protective or wanting to know more about you.

Ya sure everything's settled down, and time has made us realized for better or worse. But a part of me, trying so hard to trust you, its not a simple task. You once broke my trust, so to gain back my trust its not as easy as you think it is. I may smile at you, telling you that I'm fine with everything, but to tell you the truth, you wont be able to see the sadness and pain i kept inside.

I pray for the best between us.

Adios my micos (: have a beautiful day ahead!

DON'T RUIN IT

Hello beautifulS!

So there's one thing i'm worrying about. I really, REALLY am scared that my friend will forget what day is tomorrow. I really hope that "the friend" hasn't forgotten about it. If "the friend" really did forgot about it, i will be really, really, REALLY disappointed. NOT JOKING. It's the first time been asked! I really don't want anything to ruin the day. I can't imagine how mad and sad i will feel. Hopefully it works out tomorrow.

pretty please? ):

Addios my micos (: & a happy new year!

Like, FINALLY!

Hellooo peeps! So basically everyone's stressing about the law assignment thing which we HAVE TO hand in this MONDAY.

Stress stress stress! yes? HAHAHAHHA. Indeed it is very VERY stress to do the law

assignment. You know you have to think hard and whether the articles you found is related to the law you've learned in your syllabus and all? and you have to state what the law it is related to and give your freaking opinion to it.

I mean like... COME ONNN!! WHYYYY must it be so hard.

Thankfully, everyone is almost finish with their law assignments.

So besides that after all the waiting and waiting and WAITING.....

AND FINALLY, today is the day where a dear friend of mine is BACK!

After all the waiting, FINALLY!! Hope my dear friend reaches malaysia safe and sound!

Guess i have to continue finishing the article.

JUST ONE MORE!

adios lovely people!

Memories

WELLOW! I wonder how long I've never blogged? HAHA oh wells, at least I'm blogging now!

Well, final exams is just around the corner and I haven't even finish studying a single subject. How cool is THAT!?

I can't seem to find the motivation to study. Every time I open a book, my mind seem to went blank. OH my sky.

I so happened to found the school magazine and I flipped through the pages and all the memories starts rushing in. AHHHH how I wish I can turn back the time (:

I really missed my friends. WE HAD SO MUCH FUN!

Not to say that I hate my life in college now, but I much prefer the time I had when I'm in high school.

We gotta hang out again guys (: really miss all of you. Take care!

loves.