A little prayer

Yesterday, I was devastated by an unexpected news of my uncle being sent to the ICU. To think that good people will have a longer life, what a joke. 

My uncle is a sweetheart. He's so nice, EVERYONE likes him. He loved every single one of us. He will never give up on us. You can say that he's and adult with a kid's heart.

HE HAS TO WAKE UP BY TOMORROW. If he doesn't, his life may be in a huge danger. 

I sincerely hope that he'll go thru this critical stage. Miracles do happen, right? So why not give him another chance to live? 

Please don't let miracles to die. I beg you. 

dying inside

The moment when you feel that you just wanna die and not live no more,

The moment when you feel you're a piece of dumb shit,

The adrenaline rush you feel,

The heart is pacing so fast, you find difficulties to even breathe,

The guilt inside you, that's slowly eating your heart.

YEAP, that's how i'm feeling right now. I FEEL LIKE DYING LIKE RIGHT NOW, THIS INSTANCE.

HOW, HOW IN THE WORLD, HOW CAN THEY, LIKE CHARGE A FREAKING TINY PIECE OF A4 PAPER, WITH ONLY BLACK INK, BLACK INK, FOR 50 CENT?! That's so insane. PLUS, my uncle's GIRLFRIEND, works there. After negotiation, she charge us RM450. THAT is still so dam expensive. RM400 i can buy 4 of my college textbooks with that price. I feel like murdering myself right now.

I was to be blamed actually. It was my fault for not asking the price. but I really didn't know. I printed there once and it wasn't even so expensive. This will be my last visit. I will never EVER step into that shop ever again. I really learned my lesson. It hit me hard.

SO PEOPLE, please ask before purchasing. DONT BE AS STUPID AS ME.

have a lovely day miccos! well i pretty much killed my day. ADIOS!

unpredictable

You know I always felt that there was something about him that I will never ever figure out. No matter how hard I try, there will always be something that is left unsaid or unheard. Its not that i couldn't forget about the past or whatever, its that somehow i always feel that he's hiding something & not being that honest with me. OR maybe i was the problem. I shouldn't have been so... over reacting and jealous maybe? but this is me. If you weren't important to me, i wont bother being so protective or wanting to know more about you.

Ya sure everything's settled down, and time has made us realized for better or worse. But a part of me, trying so hard to trust you, its not a simple task. You once broke my trust, so to gain back my trust its not as easy as you think it is. I may smile at you, telling you that I'm fine with everything, but to tell you the truth, you wont be able to see the sadness and pain i kept inside.

I pray for the best between us.

Adios my micos (: have a beautiful day ahead!

DON'T RUIN IT

Hello beautifulS!

So there's one thing i'm worrying about. I really, REALLY am scared that my friend will forget what day is tomorrow. I really hope that "the friend" hasn't forgotten about it. If "the friend" really did forgot about it, i will be really, really, REALLY disappointed. NOT JOKING. It's the first time been asked! I really don't want anything to ruin the day. I can't imagine how mad and sad i will feel. Hopefully it works out tomorrow.

pretty please? ):

Addios my micos (: & a happy new year!